Invasion: My dream

We met... I looked into ur eyes and saw the heart of a man.. Someone who wanted to love as well as be loved, the right way.. No confusion, no excuses.. I want to give you all of me... I want to give you everything... everything in me says this is right, but everyone says this is wrong... The things you say, the looks you give, the expressions on ur face, EVERYTHING about u just makes me wanna let go and give u my heart... but I cant... It just wouldnt be right... or would it? Could I love you, share my world with you, hold you, caress you, make love to you, get to know you and ur soul...Is this real? No.......  Am I dreaming... if so dont wake me.. I need this, I need you...I need to experience and know what real love is and what it can do to me, but it only happens in my dreams... thats not fair.. I need reality... Can I pull u thru? Take u from those dreams and bring u into my world...I know this is sudden, but I feel like this is real... dont let go... stay with me... love me... show me how u want me to love you.. let me experience ur body.... I dont want anything or anyone else.. you make me feel....... Words cant even express... I wake up thinking about u, my day is consumed of ur presence... I go to bed thinking about  u.. My dreams are taken over by what you could do to me... Ive never felt this way.. never done these things... but Im willing to go further... Willing to let go of all my inhibitions and let you have me... is this love... not yet.. but the lust is taking over my fantasies and I want this to be real... so dont play me.. dont play games... were adults.. lets do what we do... lets turn this into love so we can live.... live our lives together.. no regrets, no problems.. just u and me and lifes possibilities.....

Fuck It!!!

This pain is unbearable.. undescribable.... unrealistic.. equivilant to an arrow or a bullet being shot thru ur chest... it feels like someone fucked u up and left u there for dead not caring if u lived or died... Nothing or any one has ever compared to the pain u r feeling... and it seems like no one cares... ur confidence has been shot... ur love has been killed.. ur heart has been broken... and ur life destroyed... So now what do you do? U try to pick up the pieces to a puzzle of lies and heartache.. everything you thought was real was fake...everything you loved u now hate... even yourself...Uve put up with the same bullshit for so long that you dont even think you know what real is anymore.. or what it feels like to be truly happy.. Not that fake shit that u plaster onto ur face to fool everyone on a daily.. Not that shit u tell ur parents when they call and ask how u r doing... No the real happiness that comes along when everything seems like its going wrong, u still have that hope and faith in urself and the people who surround u.... but u dont feel like that right now.. right now u wanna scream... and cry... and throw things... and punch walls... and break things... hurt someone as much as they have hurt u... BUT none of that will really help the situation so now its like damn all u can say is FUCK IT