Fuck It!!!

This pain is unbearable.. undescribable.... unrealistic.. equivilant to an arrow or a bullet being shot thru ur chest... it feels like someone fucked u up and left u there for dead not caring if u lived or died... Nothing or any one has ever compared to the pain u r feeling... and it seems like no one cares... ur confidence has been shot... ur love has been killed.. ur heart has been broken... and ur life destroyed... So now what do you do? U try to pick up the pieces to a puzzle of lies and heartache.. everything you thought was real was fake...everything you loved u now hate... even yourself...Uve put up with the same bullshit for so long that you dont even think you know what real is anymore.. or what it feels like to be truly happy.. Not that fake shit that u plaster onto ur face to fool everyone on a daily.. Not that shit u tell ur parents when they call and ask how u r doing... No the real happiness that comes along when everything seems like its going wrong, u still have that hope and faith in urself and the people who surround u.... but u dont feel like that right now.. right now u wanna scream... and cry... and throw things... and punch walls... and break things... hurt someone as much as they have hurt u... BUT none of that will really help the situation so now its like damn all u can say is FUCK IT